Door of Hope Testimony: Brian

Donnie Allan is my mentor.

My sexual bondage started when I was in my teens and continued for the next 33 years of my life. It started with self gratification then advanced to porn and illicit sexual activity. I thought getting married would change me in this aspect but it did not as I continued to participate in in illicit activities which now included adultery. I did not become involved with same sex activities until I was 30. It was easier to find and lots of guys seemed to be into it. I found that as I continued in this lifestyle that I needed to become more and more involved in depraved things to try to find that satisfaction.

Through this lifestyle I contracted veneral warts which I inadvertantly passed onto my wife. When she discovered this, our marriage ended. The Bible says that the "wages of sin are death". I feel that this does not necessarily mean physical death but in my case, death of a marriage, death in my financial situation and the death of my soul.

In 2006 I moved to Edmonton where I found Christ and was baptized. I thought that becoming a "new person" would change my SSA. It did for a while but when I moved back to Ontario and my old haunts it all returned. About a year ago I tried Setting Captives Free but was not faithful enough to God to complete it. A few months ago I signed up again and with the grace of God and his forgiveness I was able to complete the course. With my mentor's help and the guidance of Setting Captives Free and the grace of God, I have been free from self gratification and illicit sexual activity for 4 months. I have been free from pornography for almost 3 months.

Through this course and with the help of my Christian counsellor I have turned away from my sinful ways.