Door of Hope Testimony: Bill

I was always sheltered growing up and lived in what most would call a great christian home. In many ways it sure was. I had parents committed to each other and always had my physical needs met. I was saved when i was young. What lacked in my life was my emotional needs and a bond with my dad. This lead me to unforseen misinterpretations of a healthy relationship with a man. It lead me into sexual sin. At first it was self gratification and lust.

I married and had kids but that sexual sin was still there. Sometimes it almost seemed to disappear but it always came back. As the years progressed so did my sin and my "buy in to satan's lies". As stress and pressures build up I eventually turned away from God and my marriage. Satan had a real hold of me and I was buying into it hook, line and sinker. The joys of the world (sexual sin) were empty. I was sinking and my marriage almost ended.

God's grace and mercy saved me. God had it that my Pastor found out and he had a frank talk with me with a loving spirit. God also lead me to Setting Captive's Free and the Door of Hope. Moving from my repetitive sin wasn't easy at first but the rewards are for life. YES FOR LIFE. The bitterness, selfishness and anger I felt went away. I repented of my sexual sin and God forgave me.

I thank my pastor and door of hope mentor in this journey of a fellowship with Christ. Well they are not the ones really to thank as they were just part of Gods plan in His grace for me.

Do I still have temptations? Yup; but don't we all? Mine is sexual sin. My brother in Christ maybe gambling or alcohol. Temptation dealt in the right way makes me reliant on God resulting in fellowship with him. This I so need. To get there I needed to have a broken spirit and a sorrowful heart. Psalms 51:17

God is the only answer of what I have been looking for. The peace, love, and most of all JOY many seek in their addictions. You will only find it in one place as it is no where else. God has it and it is free and there for the taking.

So though I do not deserve it God loves me and Jesus, his son, has been an advocate for me so that I will have eternal live. 1 John 2:1

Dear God
Thanks you for placing this program and these men before me. As you promise you have provided for me again and again and this is just one example of it.
In Jesus name Amen.