Door of Hope Testimony: Neil

I have thought over the past few days what I would write here and as I share my story I hope others will be inspired and encouraged.My story is a story of redemption, love and grace - a story that shows God is the same loving forgiving God He always has been.

Where to start? I do not want this to be a catalogue of sin - homosexual sins, pornography and masturbation - however in truth that is where my life was. I am 49 years old and made a commitment to Christ 28 years ago. In that 28 years I have made many stupid and foolish mistakes. I could write here of how bad my past, my childhood was but the ultimate responsibility for my sins was and is me. For most of my life I have made excuses and blamed others - well that has now ended and I now accept total responsibility for my choices.
I remain screwed up for a long time - I started this course for the first time last year but never ended it. In February thsi year as I was praying I was sure that I was to do the course again and today I have completed it. Praise God!! I was not sure if I wanted to truly give up my sins - they had become my comfort blanket - but as these 6 months have passed - God has used this course combined with the teaching on grace in my own church to change me. I am no longer a gay Christian or a Christian struggling with gay issues - I am just a living breathing child of an awesome God. He has changed me and thanks to Setting Captives Free for this course. I am sure there will be challenges ahead but this captive has been set free and the adventure of life now begins.