Door of Hope Testimony: James

From a young age (probably 14 on) I have had same sex attractions. I knew that it was sin and I tried to repress it. I was so ashamed that I kept it hidden and went on for about 25 years in this fashion. It got worse, however, and I occasionally engaged in anonymous sexual encounters and with the arrival of the Internet, I became more entagled in my sin. Looking back I see that I engaged in a seemingly never-ending cycle of sinning, "repenting", sinning, and "repenting." Apart from the actual acts themselves (which were horrible in their own right), I did not fully surrender these problems to God. I would tell God that I was sorry but I could not bring myself to confess my sin to another person.

When I finally got sick and tired of being sick and tired, I told God that I would do anything to find healing and wholeness from this problem. He took me at my word and after I enrolled in the Setting Captive Free course. I confessed everything to my wife as well. That was the absolute hardest thing I could do. You see my pride and the utter shame of this issue were coming into play and I had the hardest time doing this. However when I did, I found so much grace and forgiveness from God expressed through my wife.

I am on the mend. I am fully dependent on God now on a daily basis. This course does not provide any "magic formula." What it does do is direct you to what God has to say about this issue and provides you a clear view of perfect scriptural principles for overcoming this besetting sin. You have to be ready for it. You must also be ready to take whatever additional measures that God directs you to take after the course to walk in freedom. Now, with the help of God and the full support of my wife, I am doing just that!