Door of Hope Testimony: Chris

I accepted Christ as my Saviour at the age of eight, I remember how wonderful and excited I was, I wanted to share with everyone the love of Jesus. I grew up in a christian home and we attended a church in a small town in Kansas.

My Father and I never had a very good relationship, and I didn't have a good relationship with the other boys that I attended public school with. I was very artistic, and had different interests than they had. I was molested by an older cousin at the end of age 8 or early at age 9. I was asked to perform sexually for him. I remember doing as he asked not physically forced, but I remember some type of cohersion. I learned from that point on that it gave me acceptance, which lead me to more and more illigitimate behavior with other boys.

At about the age of 10 or 11 I fell in love with another boy my age that lived on a farm nearby, We carried on a relationship for several years. I never thought of myself as homosexual. I thought that if I never kissed him that I would not be a homosexual.

At age 16 I left home and moved to Colorado, where I met a girl a year older, we became really good friends. We married about three years later. I thought that marriage would help the homosexual desires to go away.

I fell into homosexual porn, and continued to actout in this manner for 22 years. I knew that what I desired and did to act was wrong, but I felt I had no control over the power of the sin.

A little over a year ago I was doing a bible study and I really felt God convicting me to share my battle with my wife. I said no that this is something that I can never share, and that I will take to my grave. A few months later after many, many prayers, and crying out for help God helped my share with my wife. He then lead me to share with my pastor and his wife.

I started counseling, God lead me to a wonderful book Homosexual No More, by Dr. Bill Consiglio, and then to the Door Of Hope.

God has completely changed my life. I am now closer to Him than I ever dreamed possible, My relationship with my wife is better than a dream, and I am living in freedom from the awful chains that once bound me so tightly.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for allowing God to use each and everyone of you. I am living proof of God's power, and His willingness to change our lives if we are willing to allow him to work.