In His Image Testimony: Jessica

There was a time in my life in which i choose to look in the mirror and let that depict my worth. The mirror became my obsession and i depended on my physical reflection to tell me whether I was beautiful or not. I never approached God to hear what he had to say about beauty. But rather I relied on the means of this world,such as media. I became obsessive quickly and choose to turn to starvation and over excersize to achieve the beautiful, thin, perfect body I so believed I needed to have in order to be happy. But the more i tried the more i spiraled into a state of self hatred. I could not stand to look in the mirror with out crying and being disgusted with what i saw. The mirror, no longer my friend, became my worst nightmare. When I was 16 I found myself with severe stomache aches, tiredness and dizziness, on my way into an addictive eating disorder. I sat on the bathroom floor frustrated, angry and just broken. But God, who continually holds my life together, asked me what i was doing and why was i destroying his temple? It shocked me into a three year battle to walk away from the destruction of my body and towards the honouring of my king. I found freedom this year and Setting Captives Free has provided strong tools, encouragment, meaningful accountability and has reminded me of so many truths, one being "...The Lord does not look at the things man looks at. Man looks at the outward appearance, but the Lord looks at the heart." (1 Samuel 16:7)I have learned to look at the heart of God and what he sees as beauty and worth and in him everyday this is what i seek to find. Setting Captives Free is an advocater of truth and a passionate warrior against the lies of Satan. It taught me to continually seek God and rely on my maker to tell me about who I am and where I find my worth.