In His Image Testimony: Jessie

For 6+ years I led a double life, bound by hidden sin. I was consumed with the way that I looked, obsessed with meeting the worlds and others expectations of how I was supposed to look. And I was willing to do whatever it took to get "that" look. I felt out of control and one of the only things I felt like I could control was what I ate, or didnt. I would do whatever it took, or whatever felt good at the moment to reach what I thought felt good or looked good. I would take diet pills, diuretics, laxatives. I would binge on any appetite suppressant that I could. I was tired and miserable.I thought that I was hard-wired wrong and that this was just how I was made. I felt guilty and was ashamed. It felt like a heaviness was always on me. I could only press in so far in my relationship with the Lord too. I was stuck. Finally reaching a point of desperation, a point where I was done with this lifestyle that was only leaving me miserable, I found Setting Captives Free. Through the help of my counselor, I got plugged in. At first it was a challenge to make myself vulnerable and accountable for my destructive eating habits. But my desire for freedom and increased intimacy with the Lord far out weighed the uncomfortable feeling of being accountable. The In His Image course really changed my life. I learned my worth and value and how the Lord sees me. I learned how to combat the attacks of the enemy and how to renew my mind. I fell more in love with Jesus through daily time with Him. I found a boldness inside of me to reach out to others. I learned that I was beautifully made and that there was NOT something wrong with me like I had thought. I found complete and total freedom and victory over destructive eating habits. I am free from that heaviness and bondage that once held me captive for so long. I am a precious jewel in the eye of my Father. I am my beloveds and He is mine.