The Lord's Table II Testimony: James

It was an amazing and at times difficult experience. At work I would often feel more energetic, I wasn't waking up tired (unless i had interupted sleep the night before - which happened), I felt sharp at school and didn't feel up and down. On the otherside their were times of complete emptiness where I felt so empty that i could only cry out to the Lord and read his word. I felt bored at times not fellowshipping around the table at home and at school. The Lord did some work on my heart and showed me things in my heart and in his church that were uncomfortable and almost painful at times. I experienced pride some days, thinking myself greater than others for what I was doing. God led me into times of intense prayer for my school and for a few individuals which was difficult but great as well to be burdened with his concerns. At times I was very hungry and cold, even freezing. I had times of intense temptation - thinking about pizzas and pies and other tasty treats. i resisted to the bitter end. I tried fasting with broths and smoothees for the first week but I found they were heavy and got my digestive system going. In faith i felt like only clear juice and water was what i was to drink. After i established that it was easier because at the start I had been all confused by all these recipes and requirements I could follow.
I felt God has given me a new boldness and stout heartedness to take his love and word to the lost. i look forward to seeing him work in me. At times on the fast I felt like I had nothing to give to my students and was dry. Other times God would give me a word or I would be teaching his word to my class and it was like a fire was lit and I just poured out his life to others. At other times I got very judgemental and critical of others and wanted to speak out in my flesh but God's wisdom would finally come and help me know how to move through. Praise God, what a wonderful time and what a wonderful God he is. All the glory and honour to him. And thanks to Gary for carrying my armour and interceding with our father for me.