Lord's Table Testimony: Dianna

My name is Dianna and I have been a Christian for 37 years. How do I begin to tell of a life-time that has already gone by and yet I know there is more to come in Gods work. I was lost and in a relationship that was very abusive. My heart was filled with disappointment, despair and depression. The thoughts of suicide were running through my mind and I saw no way out of this life of doom. I was trying out drugs and drinking a little but the pain in my heart was what overwhelmed me. My mother said to me, "Dianna, go to church." I went to church one Sunday, just happened to be the right kind of church, and there the Lord met me and I was truly Born Again. My life would never be the same. I entered Bible College and met my husband of almost 26 years and we ministered together as pastor and pastor's wife in a church in California for over 18 years. During our marriage and ministry, we began a life of overeating. My husband began to get larger and larger and I was nearly 200 lbs and 5' 4" tall. No matter what we tried (diet) it didn't work and most likely we didn't want it to work. Our being overweight affected us in ministry at times and we were miserable not knowing what to do. We didn't think we were in sin, just overweight. We left California and came to Utah to start churches to reach souls for Christ. We came in February of 2001 and had just begun the work of starting churches, when my husband got sick and we found out that he had pancreatic cancer. Cancer caused my husband to finally loose weight and later his life. In June of 2002, my dear husband went home to be with our Lord. The hardest year of my life was loosing my husband. Here I am, a widow at 50, in a state I really didn't want to be in and overweight. Great loss does help in loosing weight and I lost 40 lbs and was feeling really good about my weight loss. Three years later I met my new husband, a wonderful Christian man, and we married. I began to overeat again and told him, "I can't gain all this weight back," but I did. The guilt and bondage of weight gain shadowed over me and I began to cry our to God for help. I looked at another weight loss program that taught you to eat less food but the spiritual part of the program was not what I wanted, so I quit. My son, found Setting Captives Free for me on the internet and I am enjoying a new life. A life of freedom from the bondage of food and realizing that overeating is a sin. I finally realized I was sinning every time I put too much food in my body or comforted myself with food and not with the Lord. I am not at the goal weight I wish to be at but I know that through this program and the power of the Word of God I will reach that goal. I know I am truly set free from the bondage of overeating. In closing, I would like to say, thank you to my son for finding this program and to those that have written the lessons that have captivated my heart to do what is right before our Lord.