Lord's Table Testimony: Kerry

I have battled with my weight all of my adult life. Occasionally, I would try some new eating plan or exercise plan claiming to help me lose weight in just 30 days. After just a couple of weeks I would give up when I didn't see any results. After that, I would look at these diets and talk myself out of it before I even got started. My struggle with my weight affected my relationship with my husband, it affected how I felt about myself, but I never realized how it affected my walk with Christ. I learned to justify my weight and how it affected my relationships by saying that my husband wouldn't accept me the way I was, that God gave us food to enjoy, and that if God wanted me to lose weight he would not allow me to fail. I never even considered that what I was doing was sin! That I was swallowing all the lies Satan fed me until I was completely in bondage to food and looking to food to satisfy my needs, and finally, giving in to every desire for food that entered my mind.

God brought me to the place where I needed to be in order to recognize my sinful condition and to see how it not only affected my relationship with my husband, but it was putting a barrier in my relationship with God and was keeping me from being effective in my areas of ministry with my husband, my children, and people at church.

When I heard about Setting Captives Free, I recommended it to people in our church who were going through situations of marital infidelity or addictions to pornography. I saw that there was also a study for food addiction, but I dismissed it by telling myself that I wasn't addicted to food in an unhealthy way, I just enjoyed it a little too much sometimes. But God brought it to my mind again when I saw the scale rising to an all time high. I knew that things were out of control and I was unable to stop it. I signed up for The Lord's Table course and began a wonderful journey of learning about God's love and faithfulness and leaning on Jesus for the strength that I needed to confront my sin and begin living in freedom. What a wonderful feeling it is to be able to sit down to a meal and be able to enjoy food for what it is - God's provision for my physical nourishment, and then be able to stop when I am full.