New Wine Testimony: Aubrey

My mentor is Linda Aulino, and I am so thankful to her for all her support and encouragement. I was 18 when I became addicted to meth. I was "just trying it once" with a couple of my so-called friends, but that's not what ended up happening. About six months after becoming addicted to meth, I found out I was pregnant. I quit the day I found out, threw everything away and said I would never touch it again. I told my family I was pregnant and, after seeing how much I had already disappointed them, I didn't want to add to that disappointment, so I didn't confess my addiction. I had my baby in August of 2005, and was baptized in March of 2006. Because this was unconfessed sin, it was very easy for Satan to use it to get me back on his side. About four months ago, I started using again, never thinking about how much it hurt my family, my son, and all the people who loved me. But most of all, I wasn't thinking about how much I was hurting God. I saw myself getting bad, and tried over and over again to quit gradually. I even asked God to help me to quit, but I would give Him guidelines like... "Help me to quit, but don't let me get caught" or "Just don't let me get hurt" or "Don't let me get into trouble." Fortunately, that's not how it happened. I finally broke down and asked Him to help me no matter what it took. My friend told my mom about it almost a week later and, instead of denying it, I broke down and confessed it to her and to the elder at my church. He recommended that I try the Setting Captives Free website and the New Wine course. I signed up that night when I got home, and have been clean for 63 days. Since I turned to Him, He took away my withdrawals (I only had a headache one day and was tired for a while), and I have not had the desire for it that I thought I would have. I thank God that He gave me people who love and care about me, for leading me to this website.