A United Front Testimony: Lorraine

I only wish there had been a course like this 35 years ago for both my husband and me. When I first learned about my husband’s homosexuality, I was a young mother, and totally naive as to what it was all about. My husband was in the ministry when he shared his struggle with me, so I basically had no one to run to. He WAS my pastor. We had moved back to the small community where I had grown up and, because everybody knew everybody, I felt too embarrassed to say a word to anyone. I didn’t really have a clue as to what I should do, so I just kept on trying to keep up a happy front when really I was so sad, perplexed, lonely, and wished, at times, to die on the inside. Many of the things covered in this course were areas God had already healed me of, simply through years of crying out to him and allowing him to search my heart. I am almost 60 years old now, and there have been many tears because of emotional pain, disappointment in counselors and even other pastors who meant well, but weren’t able to help, either. For me, it was either seek the Lord with my whole heart and prove him true to his word, or die! Well, truly the Lord lives and so do I! Not one word of his good promise has failed me! The wonderful thing about this course is that I could still learn things (we are never too old to learn). But, it also was an incredible confirmation in my life that indeed God’s ways are God’s ways and always will be. Looking back over the years, I can only praise him for his faithfulness to me when I felt like throwing in the towel. What Martha’s book teaches is absolutely true, and I praise God that I’m still married to the same man I pledged my marriage vows to and yet, he is totally different because of the Setting Captives Free course for homosexuals. It is so important for the wife to be free of bitterness, self-pity and resentment. I cannot say enough good about this course. May many come to freedom!