A United Front Testimony: Sherry

Sherry, in her application to be a mentor with A United Front, wrote...

Dear SCF staff:

My mentor is Ginna. I completed the "United Front" study a few weeks ago. I would like to request to be a mentor to other women going through the same struggles I went through after learning of my husband's sin of pornography, masturbation and immorality.

At the beginning of the study, I was a bitter, self-centered, angry woman. I selfishly allowed my anger at my husband's sin to filter down into just about every area of our marriage. Although my husband had completed the Way of Purity course and had also become a mentor, I refused to believe he had really changed. I looked for every sign I had seen in the past and constantly thought that he would drop another PMI bombshell on me at any moment.

When I wasn't focused on being angry with my husband, I was mad at God. How dare He allow this? My husband was preparing for ministry!

When I wasn't angry with my husband or God, I was angry with others. How dare they ever tell me I'm wrong! I'm perfect or can't they see that I try so hard to be perfect?

When I wasn't angry with anyone else, I was angry with myself. How dare I mess up my husband's life, my children's lives or my life by my imperfection at marriage? What did I do that made my husband behave so badly?

My husband told me about the United Front study. I put off going to the website until the Holy Spirit made it impossible for me to stay away. PRAISE GOD! He finally got through to me through the study on "The Excellent Wife," through His precious Word and through the loving advice from Ginna. I truly wanted change when I logged in the first time, but I needed a loving, biblical swat on the behind.

Finally, I decided that I wanted to please God more than pleasing myself or anybody else. That made a difference in my Christian walk, the way I speak, the way I act and the way I think about things now. I was a Christian before, but so many of the concepts I learned were things that had gone over my head or that I never knew.

And what Christ has taught me has filtered down into so many areas of my life. I'm beginning to experience victory in the area of my weight, where my sins of gluttony and slothfulness have enslaved me for so many years. Because of what I read in the study, and in God's Word, I resigned from my job so that I can be the godly wife and mother I believe God wants me to be at home.

If you choose to have me as a mentor, I would be honored. If you choose to deny my application, I still say "Thank you" for what the Setting Captives Free site has meant to my marriage and to me personally.