Keith Bell

At the age of 11 or 12 I was molested by an older boy. That was the beginning of years of self-gratification and later led me into the darkness of homosexuality.

I accepted Christ as my savior at age 23. But kept my homosexual desires a secret and hidden deep. I knew God knew and time after time I would ask Him to remove the desires of self-gratification from me. I tried on my own many times to stop my lustful actions only to fall within a week or two.

At age 24 I married. I thought this would end this sin that I was trapped in. It didn’t, and for another 29 years I kept this all hidden from my wife, my family and the church.

On August 17, 2004, I reached the end. I couldn’t control my desires in viewing gay porn and continuing to give in to gratifying myself, and thoughts of finding someone to have a relationship with were in the back of my mind. I did a web search for some help. That is when I found Setting Captives Free.

After doing the first lesson in Door of Hope I knew this was the place that would lead me to God’s grace and a way to quench the desires that were burning in my soul. I had hope!

Door of Hope also set me up with a mentor that has been down a similar road. He was always encouraging with his responses to my lessons and emails. His prayers as well as other who are connected with Door of Hope were felt daily.

Door of Hope taught me the truth of who I am; a child of God. I learned that the emptiness inside me could never be filled by homosexuality but only by the Living Water that God offers. I learned to bring my sin out into the light by confessing my sins to my wife and to my Pastor. I’ve learned a battle plan and to gear up in God’s armor daily. But most of all I’ve learned to be broken and to allow God’s grace to heal. We have a great and awesome God, who is in control of my life.

Keith Bell