My mentor is Yen. Throughout my life, I have always struggled with the question of ‘who am I?’ and what it means to be a woman. Growing up, I was a tomboy - I didn’t like dolls, and much preferred to play with the boys. As a child and into adolescence, I was teased by a number of boys and there are several incidents where I was sexually harassed. I grew up in a Christian home and knew the truth about God. I remember signing a card at youth group when I was 13, which declared that I would wait for true love and stay sexually pure until marriage. I did not think this would ever be an issue for me. However, leaving home at 18 and moving to college was an experience that was hard for me, as I struggled to become independent and be an adult. Instead of depending on God for everything I need and dealing with the issues that I was having, I sought help from a friend. However, this led to my becoming emotionally dependent on this person. Over time, this relationship shifted from being friends to something physical. At the time I knew it was wrong but I hated myself; I wasn’t eating and I had also started drinking on a regular basis. I thought that by being close to another girl it would complete me and make me feel loved and valued. Unfortunately, the opposite happened. I became more paranoid; I was constantly sick and/or in tears, and I felt trapped. My relationship with God was just lip service in public and being angry with Him in private. I felt ripped off at God as my life was in ruins, but the reality is that it was my own sin that was tearing me apart. On the day that I decided to walk away from this relationship, I prayed that God would show me the truth and that I would be able to return to my first love. That is when I found a link to the Door of Hope course. This has been an absolute blessing to my life, as I have been able to reconnect with my Lord Jesus Christ. It has involved me humbling myself and asking Christ to meet all my needs. I now trust in Him alone and can say that He is faithful. God has been granting me so many victories as I walk with Him. As the song goes ‘All of You, is more than enough for all of me’ - I now know this to be true in my life. There are still days when I struggle, but I know that there is true freedom in Christ and that my value comes from Him alone.